Oh hey November...

Remember the video to Madonna's Ray of Light in the late 90s? I feel like I'm standing still in the midst of that video. How do I slow it down? It's already November, the year is coming to an end and it's like I won't get a break. Everything is always all or nothing. That kind of thing can be super hard. Finding balance is my number one top priority now.

Saturday I slept. Like slept in! It was amazing! The weather was perfect for catching up on some much needed rest. We didn't get any trick or treaters (we never do) and we didn't make any plans to go to my parents like normal. We ended up ordering a pizza, grabbing popcorn from the movie theater and binge watching Game of Thrones until about 11.

Sunday was super long with the fall back - but it wasn't too bad.

We started the morning with an Anursara practice. I'm so sick of my knee hurting. Ever since I fell it's been nothing but problems.

I'm super interested in Somatics. They're all like little yoga party tricks. When I find myself more interested in something as much as I want to participate and actually complete the exercise, I find myself frantically trying to write notes. I'd much rather watch and take notes on how to cue it and what they should be feeling then do it on my own later. I think I've got a few I want to include as a "workshop" to a pose in my upcoming sequences.

Overall, it was one of the less intense days for me. For that I am grateful. I got called out on not breaking emotionally during Yamas & Niyamas like I had previously warned. Poor Kelsey got the brunt of that last week. I think this may be the reason I feel like to do. Things are bubbling up and there at the surface but they haven't come out yet. I just feel discombobulated and I don't know how to fix it.

If anything, Business of Yoga is one of my favorite topics. Not to toot my own horn (toot! toot!) but I think I'm pretty darn good on this aspect of yoga. Definitely my strong suite. I love that this lets me unleash some of my creativity. I love that I'm making time for this to happen. I actually would really love teaching a class on this. So that may be something to store in my back pocket for future. There are so many things available to you at little to no cost. You don't need a fancy camera... In fact, none of the things I've posted thus far have been with a fancy camera (aside our family picture previews). So if all you have is your phone and access to Facebook then you're Golden! Truly, I would love to get into the operations side of a yoga studio. But I don't want to be taken advantage of. I think I have a lot to offer. But anything managing wise always makes me leery because of how I was treated in a prior position I had.

I'm finding myself frustrated in my style of teaching not matching what I'm being instructed or taught. It's not that I'm not being taught amazing things. I just have a different style I want to portray and maybe that means I need to look at certification programs to get the knowledge/support that I'm still longing for.  I think a restorative training is DEFINITELY in my future. I want my class to be a happy medium between a full on restorative class and what I'm learning now. I don't want to see how many poses I can cram into an hour long class... When I taught an hour and 15 class I only had 14 poses and that included Savasana - which was 15 minutes. I was drawn to yoga because I could do it. Not because I was pushed. So. I feel like my purpose is to help ease into it. Then get them to branch out to things where they will find themselves pushed and tested in harder poses or sequences. If I would have gone to a yoga class other than where I first started - I know hands down I wouldn't be where I am right now. I probably would have walked away and never looked back. I want to be the person who gets them to stay!

Part of me being frustrated is because I'm being pushed from my norm. Which IS a good thing! I also think part of my frustration comes from me having to sort through all of these things that are being thrown at me a mile a minute.  Literally - my binder/manual is overfilling with everything and this isn't even including the reading materials!

It's rough! It's draining and overwhelming yet beautiful and inspiring all in the same. I'm missing time with family and friends... I'm missing weekends... BUT I'm doing something. I'm finishing something! And it's something that is truly going to make the world a better place.

On top of all this; I've also been busy securing work after training. I'm only going to get better with experience. I'm only going to get experience if I seek it. So. That's what I've been doing. I've got a 4 part series starting soon over the course of November-January. It's a drop in class that I've developed compiling ALL of my favorite things to get people on the mat. I'm working and interviewing with studios to secure regular weekly classes. I'm getting overwhelmed at that because I'm realizing how much time it's going to take to prepare for those classes. I think that will be better once I'm done with training. But that's me being hopeful! I'm praying I haven't bitten off more than I can chew. But right now, I feel like I'm drowning! 

So as much as I don't want it to end. I do. For I know when it ends, I will have developed lifelong friendships with each and every one of these ladies. I'm not worried that I'll never see them again and that they won't still be a part of my life. Because I know they will.

I just need to figure out how and get things in order! There is too much chaos happening around me!

Join me!