Apparently, what I should have done earlier was say "I'll be right back" lol I have so much I want to talk about still. Anyway... HAPPY FRIDAY! It's almost Christmas, which means I'm officially freaking out over not having my Christmas shopping done!
Honestly, I think I'm just ready for the new year. I wasn't even enthusiastic about decorating this year. That's huge for me! We didn't put our tree up until last weekend, and we were lucky we even decided to do so. We ended up getting a real tree and I'm super excited about that!
Last night was the last session of the Holiday Restorative at Shine. I missed the 2nd one because of Cooper. (I promise I am going to sit down and write soon!) This week was absolutely BEAUTIFUL though. The practice... Was hard. ALL the poses I did I hated. They were hard... I think it was harder for me to just be on my mat! BUT... Those restorative ones, also sort of challenged me a little. There were a lot of twists.... and anytime I do twists I get emotional. So, needless to say; I knew it was coming! When we finally went into Savasana, Caitlin cued us into our favorite comfy position and then set up the 'music'. It was the crackling of a fire. It's so weird how instantly I felt warmth, as though I was actually sitting in front of the fire. Then she started to take us into a visualization meditation. I lost it. I was BAWLING! So there I laid, trying to compose myself. Force myself to experience the experience and not get up and go to the hall. SO, I laid there trying at least not to sound like a blubbering idiot. I choked back tears, but they still managed to stream down my cheeks. My throat hurt so bad from trying to hold in my cry. I just let it flow, and finally I stopped.
The ONE time I wore eye makeup to class on the off chance that I'd be in pictures that were taken at a get together after class, I had it all over my face!
I needed this practice! I am so grateful I was able to go, and experience what I did. Having an emotional practice is a rarity for me these days. As a teacher myself now, it's hard to focus on ME and be on MY OWN MAT! Last night, I did just that!