taking a moment to clarify

Lucky you! TWO blog posts in a week during training! (and in the same day!) I'm feeling the feels people!

Truthfully though, I feel like I need to clarify on this.

I think maybe I was a little too harsh previously in saying what I'm learning is not the style I want to teach. I can't see myself doing any other training. This was definitely perfect for me - and I will go out on a limb -a much supported limb- and say it is the BEST teacher training in my area.

BUT I'm longing for more things. The things I like most.... Like Restorative yoga, Pranayama, Yoga Nidra, Mediations... You could say I'm having a Veruca Salt moment. That's all I was eluding to. I want more! I want it now!

I know I'm being pushed in a good way and for good things. And part of training is doing the things you don't want to figure out what you do. I get it.

I just want a class I can keep up with. That's probably the Kapha in me. But it's truly how I find my release. I want to give that to people.

In student teaching and other various classes I've attended, I can't always keep up. I'm a lot slower in practice than my classmates. Then when I try to instruct a slower pace, it doesn't happen. I don't know how to fix it. Other than cueing. Which is also one of my issues.. I just want to teach people that you don't have to rush through something. You don't have to fit this many poses in a class. You don't have to take me from seated to standing to kneeling to seated to standing... 9 times out of 10 it takes me a little longer to move into something new. I can't change the way I get down from standing.. or the way I lay from sitting.

Back to cueing. I'm having a really hard time with the cueing (like Kosha cueing and what not) It's not too woo for me to experience it in a class. But I'm finding that it's too woo for me to use to direct people. I think that's maybe part of my problem too. Maybe part of that is it's really hard for me wrap my head around it all. I'm thinking that I'm expected to be all WOO about it.

I think I'm overthinking it and making it harder than it really is.

The good thing is all problems have solutions! I just need to find mine.

Thank you all so much for following me on this path!

Oh hey November...

Remember the video to Madonna's Ray of Light in the late 90s? I feel like I'm standing still in the midst of that video. How do I slow it down? It's already November, the year is coming to an end and it's like I won't get a break. Everything is always all or nothing. That kind of thing can be super hard. Finding balance is my number one top priority now.

Saturday I slept. Like slept in! It was amazing! The weather was perfect for catching up on some much needed rest. We didn't get any trick or treaters (we never do) and we didn't make any plans to go to my parents like normal. We ended up ordering a pizza, grabbing popcorn from the movie theater and binge watching Game of Thrones until about 11.

Sunday was super long with the fall back - but it wasn't too bad.

We started the morning with an Anursara practice. I'm so sick of my knee hurting. Ever since I fell it's been nothing but problems.

I'm super interested in Somatics. They're all like little yoga party tricks. When I find myself more interested in something as much as I want to participate and actually complete the exercise, I find myself frantically trying to write notes. I'd much rather watch and take notes on how to cue it and what they should be feeling then do it on my own later. I think I've got a few I want to include as a "workshop" to a pose in my upcoming sequences.

Overall, it was one of the less intense days for me. For that I am grateful. I got called out on not breaking emotionally during Yamas & Niyamas like I had previously warned. Poor Kelsey got the brunt of that last week. I think this may be the reason I feel like to do. Things are bubbling up and there at the surface but they haven't come out yet. I just feel discombobulated and I don't know how to fix it.

If anything, Business of Yoga is one of my favorite topics. Not to toot my own horn (toot! toot!) but I think I'm pretty darn good on this aspect of yoga. Definitely my strong suite. I love that this lets me unleash some of my creativity. I love that I'm making time for this to happen. I actually would really love teaching a class on this. So that may be something to store in my back pocket for future. There are so many things available to you at little to no cost. You don't need a fancy camera... In fact, none of the things I've posted thus far have been with a fancy camera (aside our family picture previews). So if all you have is your phone and access to Facebook then you're Golden! Truly, I would love to get into the operations side of a yoga studio. But I don't want to be taken advantage of. I think I have a lot to offer. But anything managing wise always makes me leery because of how I was treated in a prior position I had.

I'm finding myself frustrated in my style of teaching not matching what I'm being instructed or taught. It's not that I'm not being taught amazing things. I just have a different style I want to portray and maybe that means I need to look at certification programs to get the knowledge/support that I'm still longing for.  I think a restorative training is DEFINITELY in my future. I want my class to be a happy medium between a full on restorative class and what I'm learning now. I don't want to see how many poses I can cram into an hour long class... When I taught an hour and 15 class I only had 14 poses and that included Savasana - which was 15 minutes. I was drawn to yoga because I could do it. Not because I was pushed. So. I feel like my purpose is to help ease into it. Then get them to branch out to things where they will find themselves pushed and tested in harder poses or sequences. If I would have gone to a yoga class other than where I first started - I know hands down I wouldn't be where I am right now. I probably would have walked away and never looked back. I want to be the person who gets them to stay!

Part of me being frustrated is because I'm being pushed from my norm. Which IS a good thing! I also think part of my frustration comes from me having to sort through all of these things that are being thrown at me a mile a minute.  Literally - my binder/manual is overfilling with everything and this isn't even including the reading materials!

It's rough! It's draining and overwhelming yet beautiful and inspiring all in the same. I'm missing time with family and friends... I'm missing weekends... BUT I'm doing something. I'm finishing something! And it's something that is truly going to make the world a better place.

On top of all this; I've also been busy securing work after training. I'm only going to get better with experience. I'm only going to get experience if I seek it. So. That's what I've been doing. I've got a 4 part series starting soon over the course of November-January. It's a drop in class that I've developed compiling ALL of my favorite things to get people on the mat. I'm working and interviewing with studios to secure regular weekly classes. I'm getting overwhelmed at that because I'm realizing how much time it's going to take to prepare for those classes. I think that will be better once I'm done with training. But that's me being hopeful! I'm praying I haven't bitten off more than I can chew. But right now, I feel like I'm drowning! 

So as much as I don't want it to end. I do. For I know when it ends, I will have developed lifelong friendships with each and every one of these ladies. I'm not worried that I'll never see them again and that they won't still be a part of my life. Because I know they will.

I just need to figure out how and get things in order! There is too much chaos happening around me!

Join me!

On The Mat

Hello friends! I've got some exciting news! I've partnered up with a few local yoga studios to bring you;

ON THE MAT!

This will be a 4 class event. I'm hoping to add more dates, but I'm just glad I have my original 4 planned! Originally I had planned 2 to be at Shine and then 2 to be held at the Tiger Club in Aurora. Things haven't panned out with my 2nd location. I'm sure it just needs time. So, I contacted Jenny at Focus Om, and they are going to allow me to hold 2 of my classes there.

I originally wanted to get the 5 Class Passes set up for you. However, I'm fine tuning the details with Focus - and it's looking like this will be a public community event held by them. We will follow their pay structure for this class so unfortunately, I will have to restrict class passes from this location all together.

I have a couple discount codes going around. So if you do plan on purchasing a class pass for a discounted rate, please know that they will not expire and that I AM planning on having more classes within the area. I will be looking at renting Shine out after the new year as well as adding completely NEW locations to the mix.

During this class, it is my intention that you'll be able to take the time to experience a moment for yourself!

We'll practice gentle yoga asanas (postures) and follow it up with a 30 minute candlelight yoga nidra meditation.

In the midst of the holiday season, I promise you, this is JUST what the doctor ordered!

This definitely won't be your typical yoga class! Expect to move a bit, but be prepared for meditation and deep connection with your mind and body!

Shine Studio Batavia
Sunday, November 29th from 4:00-5:30 PM
(available for purchase now!)
*join me after for dinner and drinks at Pal Joey's!

Shine Studio Batavia
Friday, December 11th from 7:00-8:30 PM
(available for purchase now!)

Focus Om Batavia
Sunday, December 20th from
3:00 - 4:30 PM
*stay tuned for rates and details!

Focus Om Batavia
Sunday, January 17th from
5:30 - 7:00 PM
*stay tuned for rates and details!

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Slow down!

I keep saying "I just have to get through November" or "this sucks" in reference to missing Sundays... My husband... FALL... But in all honesty, I don't know what I'm going to do without these girls in my life every week!

As much as I say "I don't want to do this" pertaining to something challenging... I push myself through it, and I have these girls to witness it. As much as I say "Man, I really HATE being here for 12 hours EVERY Sunday"... I have these girls experiencing it right alongside me. So - yeah I want my Sundays back. But I wouldn't trade this for the world.

I've become one of those girls who can cry on the fly. That's teacher training. It's changing me. It's bringing things out that I buried deep inside and things I didn't know were there. We're sharing and we are changing and growing together just as much as we are separately. I find each one of these ladies SO inspiring! It's going to be hard when this comes to a close. So, I'm getting the tissues ready!

Friday night we went to Chicago Diner after training. I'm definitely looking forward to more outings like this! The best part was our dessert circle; 3 desserts constantly circling the table. :-)

Sunday morning we had a restorative training. If you didn't already know I was super into restorative yoga; my notes surely give me away! I found myself not wanting to do the poses (I've done all of them before) but taking notes frantically as Cindy spoke. I'm looking forward to a certification training from her next year!

Officially, I'm the cool kid storing her mat at her studio... (But more importantly, I got tired of lugging it back and forth all weekend lol)

Ganesha Plus Training... :-) *That's a thing now!

I was all cute and matchy matchy Sunday. bears sweater, headband, matching tank colors. I rocked it!! Then someone asked me who we played and I had no clue. (Turned out it was a Bye week!) lol My response was "I just wanted wear my new sweater and look cute!" lol Here's me Snap Chatting during lunch!

Sunday we also went over Business of Yoga. Which happened to be perfect for when I got home. I've yet to make my own official announcement; but those important to me know AND my husband sport of spilled the beans on Facebook. I love his love and support for me. It means the whole world to me!

I'll be making a more detailed announcement in coming weeks. But I'm proud to share that come December, I will be a part of the team at Focus Om (formerly A Journey Om) in Batavia. I will have 2 regular classes; True Beginners on Thursday mornings and Curvy Girl Yoga on Saturday mornings beginning the first week of December.

I've began to add these tabs under my Class Schedule here on the website. But, I'm sure you want more detailed info as to the cost, and whether you have to sign up before hand. So I will be sharing that information soon enough! Right now, I'm just designing my classes, getting my information ready for their website, and starting to market myself.

I still plan on having other locations that I will be teaching as "Savvy Serenity". More details on that will be coming soon! I'm also structuring those classes, securing locations and dates! I'm planning a small series of classes called "On The Mat" so look for that real soon! You can sign up for notifications on those classes here;

Hello, Fall! (goodbye Fall...)

This weekend was jam-packed with AWESOME! I am so unbelievably lucky to be doing what I'm doing, and to have the people who I have in my life.

Friday I went to my brother's Senior Night and the last home game of the Football season. I have to say, the farther we get into the school year - the more it sinks in, and the more I become an emotional wreck. If I never have kids, I will at least know what THIS feels like. Though, it might be better experiencing this because it's already so intense. I'm not sure I can even begin to fathom when this happens to me with my own kids.

Saturday was my husband and I's 6 year anniversary! Next month we will be together for a total of 10 years. God that makes me feel so old! I'm so lucky to have had the opportunity to have this amazing man in my life. He is there, through thick and thin - no matter what. I'm so happy I get to share this life with him, because there is no one else I would rather share it with. Saturday morning we had a little photo shoot.

This one happens to be my favorite picture!

We spent the afternoon with Eric's Mom. Had pizza (YUM!) and watched movies. She kept Cooper for the night so, we use that night to stop by the Club during bowling to see some friends we haven't seen in what feels like forever. I loved catching up and I wish we could see everyone more often. But with hectic schedules and a dog with some real separation anxiety issues - this becomes damn near impossible!

Sunday I had training. I ended up hurting my knee during the photo shoot after Cooper decided to take a walk in the woods. So, I skipped the morning practice and a lot of the poses I merely watched.

My favorite and least favorite time has become when we go over the Yamas & Niyamas book and homework. It's intense now. Like, sit for an hour and cry - intense. That's hard for me. But I'm facing some deep emotions that I'm bottling up inside. Oh yoga teacher training...

I LOVE these girls! They and this whole program are changing me!

Though one of us was out sick; we managed to still keep her there in spirit. Somehow, a chair was left out for her. Hopefully she is feeling better now. But know how much you were missed Linda! :-)

I found myself really inspired during some of the poses. I caught myself frantically trying to write things as Mindy or Jane said them. Quotes, modifications, more quotes... It's beautiful when the hardest poses that aren't for you inspire you as much as they do!!

October is almost over and it's going by so fast!!! I'm trying to savor every moment I can. But it's getting hard!

BONUS!

Here is another one of my favorites from our photo shoot :-)

amazing weekend!

I missed teacher training this past weekend.

What an insanely FUN and exciting weekend! I can't even begin to accurately describe how fun this weekend was. My husband was in one of his best friend's wedding. If you've never been to an Indian wedding, GO! Run - don't walk! It seriously was the most fun wedding I've ever been too!

Festivities started Wednesday for us with the Mehndi party. This was the henna party. Here are my after shots - PRE-scrape.

I don't really have a good post-scrape picture... It is quite a few shades lighter though now. Basically they draw the henna on you. You wait an hour - then they seal it with a lemon-sugar syrup. You wait as long as you can before you scrape off the dried paste. Then you're left with a beautiful Henna stain on your hand.

Friday my husband and I were supposed to have "date day". However, we were so wrapped up in final touches for getting ready, that it was mostly us driving around, super stressed, and eating our lunch in the car. Definitely not what I wanted - BUT I spent time with him and that's all that matters! Nothing is ever perfect.

I actually am really upset with the tuxedo rental place they used. It was literally like they didn't even measure him. We spent half of what we spent on the rental fixing their mistakes. It was just a mess. But, everything worked out. I gave a lot of pep speeches that night! lol

Saturday was the wedding. We began our day at 7AM and ended sometime early Sunday morning for a few hours of sleep before Sunday's brunch. It was long, but FUN! Well worth the lack of sleep!

Here are a few pictures from throughout the day...

My boys ready for pictures in the Penthouse! :-)

Tired at the end of the night!

Oh, and then there is this... This one is from our wedding almost 6 years ago! It's funny how time flies! The entire time the night before the wedding as we were drinking beers with Chester in the Penthouse, all I could think about was how much time has passed since we had all been together like this... almost 10 years! it's insane!

this past weekend..

I'm awful! I don't even have fun pictures to share with you from training this past weekend. :-/

Sunday I had my alarm set for 5:15 AM... However; that didn't go off until oh - about 7. So; frantically, I gathered my stuff and thew my hair up and clothes on and headed to the city. I missed the morning practice again. Sitting for 10+ hours is awful.... Practicing yoga after sitting 9+ hours is even more awful!

We taught our 15 minute sequence. I totally lost my train of thought right in the middle. WHY CAN'T I BE GOOD AT THE FLUFF??? I didn't practice - so there was that. I should have practiced. I was so nervous I wouldn't have enough time for the Mediation I wanted to do, that I skipped a few parts and ended up being 3 minutes short.

I so wanted to have everyone check in with their bodies after the lateral bend... GR!

The breath work is so hard. Most of them aren't used to a Ujjayi practice. So, getting them to focus on the breath throughout felt like pulling teeth. But - I could have been better are walking them through it and describing it. I am going to work on this.

I definitely want to take Pranyama workshops; or work more with Caitlin in learning about the breath and how to incorporate it. More so than what I know just from going to her yoga classes. I'm adding even more books to the the long list I've got going for me already.

Time... There isn't enough time! Why can't there be more time???

Well, If there is one thing I've got; it's some skills with a yoga nidra.

time flies!

I am so mad! I had this amazing blog post half written and then my browser crashed. Turns out, when I clicked save, it didn't save. UGH! Sometimes I really dislike technology!

Last week was crazy - this week will be crazier! I've got so much to do. Time management really has to be a priority this week. I have at o nof homework for training to get done,  I start a new training program on Wednesday nights, I start back at my regular Thursday night yoga session (thank the Lord!).

This week is also the annual craft fair that I attend with my Mom. It's one of my favorite Girl's Day things and we usually run into a TON of family and friends as well. I'm especially looking forward to it this time around because I haven't had a lot of time to spend with her since training started. I'm just SUPER busy and the times that I have talked to her, it's been about drama with the club which we don't always see eye to eye on. So, it's nice to get out with none of that in the mix and enjoy time together!

Ever since I saw this blog post from The Lauren Elizabeth, I've been obsessed with this scarf.

I managed to randomly find a similar style, but in different colors on Etsy. It hasn't arrived, but I'm already obsessed. So I hope it's everything I've been expecting! :-) I can't wait to sport it for the fall weather as it gets cooler!

I've actually been pretty obsess with all things Etsy lately. I've managed to find a few Christmas presents (for others and myself).

Last week I got sick. This respiratory thing that's going around is no joke. It didn't help I was out in the chilly Chicago weather with just a shirt and flip flops (and pants too... lol). But, I was probably starting to get sick then. That's why I felt so hot the entire night.

Needless to say; this week wasn't my best Yoga Nidra. Coughing = No Bueno with laying down. Whether you're propped or not, it sucks!

I literally was the last one laying... One of the downfalls of completing Yoga Nidra prior to lunch. But, also one of the benefits!

I'm obsessed with my notes and posting them on Instagram. Sometimes I really dislike my handwriting, and sometimes I really love it. I'm going through that "I really love it phase". I also have been enjoying my doodles.

I am obsessed with this Reebok dry-fit, long-sleeve shirt I found at Marshall's when I took my brother senior picture outfit shopping. It's thin, and warm, but not too warm. I seriously LOVE it. It was such a steal too! I'm totally glad I chose this over the pillow I wanted!

This is one of my favorite spots near the new studio. It's like a block down the street. I have a thing for old Churches. They're so beautiful!

I made an eye doctor appointment. I'm not due for one until after the new year. But, lately in my contacts I've been having trouble with blurred vision and migraines. It's mostly when I am at work or on my phone. So I'm sure my vision has changed. Rather than live on Excedrin as I finish out my last box of contacts, I just figured I would bite the bullet and make the appointment.

Other than that; my week is jam packed and I've got a lot to get done! I need to go grocery shopping but I'm so tired of having to throw things out because I haven't had the time to make it (or remembered to freeze it). I think I am going to make a crock-pot meal list and just do that throughout the next few weeks! It's easier to do so when the weather is cool anyway!

After what was THE MOST insanely A M A Z I N G weekend, I've been down for the count.
Friday morning a friend called me with last minute tickets to Zac Brown Band at Wrigley. OF COURSE I rearranged my entire schedule to go. It was the MOST amazing experience EVER! Seriously! We got SO close to the stage!

And que my new Zac Brown Band obsession! lol

Sunday was my 3rd weekend of training. That's the day my sickness first started. So, I didn't even have a solid plan as to recap the weekend here like I normally do. We had a late start - so that was awesome!

I was so overly tired that I completely fell asleep in Yoga Nidra. Like, more than once. I know I jolted like 3 or 4 times. I'm not sure how many times I snored, but at least once I was told LOL I was so tired! and I knew I was getting sick. I just felt off. So I'm not surprised. It was SO relaxing. Sometimes those are the best "naps".

After Yoga Nidra was lunch. It took me forever to get up though. Once I did, the room looked like a total "morning after the sleepover".

We also taught our 5-Pose sequences. Wasn't my best work! By that time I was exhausted, and feeling more miserable. I know I should have practiced more. But I didn't I'll definitely have to work on that for the next one. We teach a 10 Pose Sequence. I need to find my voice.... And I need to be better with things coming off the top of my head. I'm not good with that in real life - so it doesn't surprise me that this may be my biggest challenge!